Inter.friend.tion

During my HS years I managed to form and keep close a group of friends, we are together for better or for worse, always... It all started during 8th year, when I met S. It was pretty much by accident, I had a friend called Laura who was also friends with S but, as we were in separate classrooms I had yet to meet her. One day I was walking with Laura and we bumped into S, that's when she introduced us... It was something like "D, meet my friend D... I mean, S!" So we all laughed our young asses off. That was the whole interaction... Then when 9th began, we were togther in the same class, S and I, but we never spoke until October. It was Oct the 1st and I thought it was S's birthday, so I went up to her when she got to school and congratulated her, hug and all... She was like "My bday is in 4 days, but thanks!" She said I was sooo sweet and we started talking more and more... And the rest is history! She is my very best friend EVER!
The next member would be J... We met during 8th year, she was on the Glee club and I was on the Volleyball team, so we both stayed after hours in school every other day... One day, a girl from the female Volleyball team went missing and it was my mission to find her. And I did! Hidden in a copboard, smoking cheap cigarrettes with J... The introductions were made and as it turns out, when 9th started, she was also in S's and my class! We actually kicked it right off, we we have never been as close as I am with S... even if we r reaaaaally close!...
Then L came along... during my freshman year in HS she was in my class but it wasn't until the second week when we started speaking again... Again, because when we were in 7th we were in the same class and she was friends with a friend of mine...But she is a little type A, so when she realized I had better calligraphy than her, she just couldn't take it and stopped talking to me... So. back to HS, I was, of course, talking to S a little too loud during Drama class and she kinda heard something Xrated from me... I remember seeing her eyes bulging out and her mouth open in disbelief... After a lot of embarrassment from my part and a lot of ohmigods from her, we started being close friends... With her, M came along... it was sort of a packacge deal... M is a little too geeky and weird, but she is adorable and we all love her... So those are my gals! We've been together ever since, sharing every ocassion and failure, laugh and tear and we all love each other dearly. There's a guy as well! MrH... well, he's another story! I met him a few months before starting Junior High, during a remedial math course... We've been friends ever since... I was the first person ever he came out to, and he was my first friend to know i am gay... So, yeah... we're pretty close! And with the years, my gals started accepting him and loving him as well... He's a huge guy, soooo tall and dark skinned, so he always looks like he's watching over us... and we all know he is... :)
So today the gals are coming to my place, mainly because J is having a little trouble with her relationship... I just can't wrap my mind around it, they're the ultimate perfect couple! J is slight, short, petit, very blonde and really beautiful... and He is a little taller than her, but still short, he's thin and small, dirty blonde and gorgeous... If someone is going to have gorgeous babies, it's by far them...
So, anytime one of us is feeling a little lovesick, we all gather together, usually at my place, just to talk it over, give advise and pretty uch relax so that we can face whatever is coming cold headed... of course, this we do over Cosmos!! So now I'm off to the store to get some cranberry juice and ice... i'll be back!

MrBear...

So... This morning I mentioned MrBear but I hadn't post anything about him before... So here it is!
MrBear is this guy I met through an iPhone app called "Grindr" (it has a funny welcome message...get ready to Grindr) LOL.. At first, I mean when I first got my iPhone and had the app downloaded, running and all, I saw his pic and I was like mmm... I can't really make out his face... too dark... but, hairy, beefy and big... sounds like fun ... So I messaged him hello and I really can't remember if he replied or not... But well, I guess, at some point, he did reply... We got to know a little bit about each other, I got a clearer face pic and some other pics as well... >.< One day he asked me out and I was busy, so I couldnt make it to the date and neglected to let him know... major oops... I though i'd blown it and he would never EVER want to try and see me again... But surprisingly -at least to me- we met! It happened on a rainy Saturday morning. We went to the movies, to "watch" Sherlock Holmes... Fuck, when I first saw him I was blown away... He is taller than me.. and I mean TALLER! maybe 6'3"... while I'm only 5'9"... and he was over all, LARGER than me... whatever, I didn't quite watch the movie... And i'm pretty sure he didn't either... After the movie we went to his place, fooled around, he showed me some pics of his latest trip -Africa- (he travels a lot... an AWFUL lot) and stuff... Then he took me home and I was feeling good, but not my usual self (meaning falling right ahead, head over heels for him), even when i liked him soooo much... Then he went, of course he did, to Orlando for a whole week. When he came back it was my exam week at school, so we couldn't see each other, then something else happened and we still couldn't see each other... Damn school and damn everything! LOL Then, when I finally was able to see him, we couldn't decide what to do, so we went again for the movies... I can't remember the name of the movie, but it was about this cute dog who was so faithful to his owner, even after he died... Whatever... Then, he took me home. It had been awesome, both times, and I REALLY like him, but wasn't allowing myself to feel anything about him, other than being happy and bodily satissfied... I guess that was due to my last relationship before I met him... It was with a GORGEOUS bear who was 34 and just pretty much played with me and my feelings... So, I guess my mind/heart/whatever related: bear, older, sex = just for fun... or something like that...
Back to the story, then he went to Hawaii for over a week!!! We kept in contact through Grindr and Twitter and stuff and he promised we would see each other and celebrate as soon as he got back (he went for his bithday and mine happened while he was in Orlando). When he came back, we went out, not to the movies this time, which I guess is progress... but for a late lunch. We arranged to meet in a mall somewhere near his office, so he wouldn't be later than needed and we had more time for ourselves... Just a problem: the mall was fucking crowded and there was no place available to eat without aving to wait for over an hour to get a table... And he was hungry, I mean, I wouldn't have minded to wait, after all I was already with him and that was everything I wanted... I wasn't even hungry... So we went to his car and he drove to a Sushi place close to his place, we ate and spent a while in there while he told me about his high school and college years and stuff... I really enjoyed that time, I feel I got to know him a lot much better and I got to understand a lot of the causes that leaded to him being this awesome man he is today...
Then we went to his place for a quiet, home theather evening... We ordered the movie -Valentine's Day- from the iTunes store and we never got to see it because by the time I left (at one in the morning) it hadn't yet finish downloading!! So we watched some episodes of The Tudors, with great fun episodes in between... The funny part is that he is quite older than me, and my body frame is much more smaller than his... and he is the bottom... I wonder how we would look to an external observer... LOL Then, when we were heading out of his place, he gave me a Mickey Mouse keychain and a palm tree pen, souvenirs from his latest vacations. Ohmigod, I really can't tell u how i felt, mainly ecause I really don't know how i felt! I guess I can say I was overwhelmed... I threw myslef into his arms and have him a big wet kiss LOL Then we went for dinner... well... HE went for dinner and I came alonngside to keep him company I guess... It is just so much fun noticing the way people see us when we're together... I mean, the waiter nearly had to pick his eyes up from the floor when he held my hand when we were leaving! I guess I do look young at his side... (he's 38)... As soon as I got home I called my bff and told him ALL about it... He then asked me if we were boyfriends, the little shit, and I didn't know what to answer... We haven't discussed it or anything, even if we keep going out regularly...  but i guess he could want it... I know I'm up for the game!
So, if anything happens, I'll keep u posted!

Love and Be Loved in Return...

I really don't know what's gotten into me, but I am feeling reaaaally down today... This is the story:

Last Thursday I was lounging around in my room, feeling lonely but not sad at all... just enjoying some me time when I received a message from an iPhone app called BoyAhoy!... it was just a "hello" from an incomplete profile named "FD". His pic had not being reviewed yet, so I wasn't able to see him, but i replied. I always do. Sadly. We started talking about whatever, u know, like "what r u into", "what u looking for in here", "what kind of guys u like" and stuff... we realized we had quite some things in common and he sent me a pic of him. Ohmigod he is really cute! Definitely not my usual kind of guy, but what the hell! He is hawt! And that was it. He went to sleep, I went to sleep. The next day, Friday, I was with my very best male friend, I mean, we went together to kinder garden! We were watching this hideos, awfully booooring movie and my phone rang. It was him... (I'll make reference to him as "MrArch") asking me to go out! he wanted to catch a movie, Prince of Persia, which i had already seen and, I mean, "guys before school, but never before friends!" I wasn't gonna leave my friend all alone on a Friday evening just to go watch a movie i had already seen... right? NOT! but i had an alternative plan... **rubs hands together** A friend form High School was throwing a party that night, so I sweetly told him I couldn't go out right then, but asked him if he had plans later that night... he said no, so I asked him to go to the party with me! He asked for my number and the adress, I gave it to him and he called me right away... FUCK i freaked out big time! And his voice! Man he must have the sexiest, manliest, deepest voice i've ever heard! I wasn't really expecting him to go to the party, I mean, it is just too much to ask of someone to meet my friends on the first date... especially MY friends... they're a bunch of lovely freaks... i love them... LOL But well, he went... He looks even better live than in the pic... man, my knickers melted off of me when i saw him... ROFL... he met my friends, joked around with them and then he spent the rest of the party with me, just talking about everything and anything... I knew I was starting to fall right then and there, I knew I was falling fast and I didnt really gave a damn! It was time for him to leave way too fast and I walked him to his car, said our goodbyes and gave him a teensy little peck on the lips... Then i floated back to the party and got wasted with my gals... LOL

So, yesterday I decided it was time to contact him again, so i messaged him hello, and he answered right back, we talked for a while and when I asked him when could i see him again, he stopped answering... just like that... for two whole burning-in-hell's-fire-anxiousness hours! "Sorry, I fell asleep on the couch"... I was like, Oh, i was thinking maybe my friends had scared u off... he said no, so i asked if i had scared him off... again, he said no, and that i was definitely going to see more of him... then my iPhone died, but that was enough to keep me floating for the rest of my Sunday afternoon. Today, we were texting, whatever, and again, when i asked him when would i see him again, he stopped answering... pretty much that happenned... mmm... 4 hours and 20 fucking minutes ago... I'm surprised i still have some hair in my head! I know, I am being pathethic, clingy and needy, everything that is a turn off for anyone... i just cant help myself!!!! Im fucking freaking out!!!!

So, as it turns out, I discovered why i am going this crazy about nothing, i mean, it could be anything... maybe his battery died, or he fell asleep again... or whatever... the thing is I forgot to take my goddammed antidepressives this morning... thats why ive been menopausic all day long... So, if i take them now, i wont be able to fall asleep until after well past sunrise... So, no Antidep for me, but, what the hell! Bring the Vodka in!! NOW!! LOL cheers everyone!

Oh and please, every little piece of advise on what should i do about MrArch will be appreciated!